Friday, January 18, 2013
Music Takes Me to the Other Side of Physical
Asking questions I am very good at. Mom and I take turns sometimes. I do a lot of thinking in my autism. For me, I just want to know what it is like on the other side of physical. It looks so easy in observing what is a huge process for me. Understanding sometimes helps. For me, movement is surgery. I have to systematically prepare for everything not reflex. It is why I love and hate impulse. Impulse is a shortcut to action, a nonthought way of doing that gets something; urges that are strong enough to bypass my need to think the movement through. My music is like that too. It takes the commands to another level - song; and sometimes the song replaces the command in triggering movement. I am much more fluid with music as a background. I love my radio as my most favorite possession after my string. Relaxing I can do with it. Do you know what that is to an Autist? - Everything.